Should've seen it coming
Should've known that something's wrong
But now I'm sitting as I watch you
Pull the pin out of a bomb and toss it to me
Please don't do this to me
Picking at the seams and
Gripping tightly to the couch
Your grandma gave when we moved in
I couldn't wait to throw it out
Now it'll always
Be where my world caved in
Oh, help me
This is not really happening
It's just too overwhelming
Tell me
It's not what it seems
This is all just a dream
Oh, God is
This what you had in mind
It's not supposed to be like this
I'm mad and I'm sad
Afraid and ashamed
I don't know what to say
I'm not ok
Is that ok with you?
Maybe I misheard
Please let me think
Just give me time
My calculations and projections
And my plans are always right
What are you saying
Can you explain it again
Everything is fine
It will be fine
I swear I'm fine
And if I keep repeating lines
Then maybe by the hundredth time
That I say it
I can make it true
Oh, help me
This is not really happening
It's just too overwhelming
Tell me
It's not what it seems
This is all just a dream
Oh, God is
This what you had in mind
It's not supposed to be like this
I'm mad and I'm sad
Afraid and ashamed
I don't know what to say
I'm not ok
Is that ok?
Emotions play chaotic games
And claim my mental real estate
I can't
It's too hard
And I'm falling apart
Does that mean I don't have enough faith
I've tried and tried
So God why can't I pray this all away
Oh, help me
This is not really happening
It's just too overwhelming
Tell me
It's not what it seems
This is all just a dream
Oh, God is
This what you had in mind
It's not supposed to be like this
I'm mad and I'm sad
Afraid and ashamed
I don't know what to say
I'm not ok
Is that ok with you?
