I Have Dreamed of You So Much

I have dreamed of you so much That you're no longer real Is there still time for me to reach your breathing body? To kiss your mouth? Make your dear voice come alive again? I have dreamed of you so much That my arms have grown used to Being crossed on my chest as I hug your shadow Would perhaps not bend to the shape of your body For faced with the real form of what has haunted me And governed me for so many days and years I would surely become a shadow The scalеs of feeling I have dreamed of you so much That surеly there is no more time for me to wake up I sleep on my feet, pray to all forms of life and love And you, the only one who counts for me today I can no more touch your face and lips Than touch the lips and face of some passerby I, I have dreamed of you so much Have walked so much, talked so much Slept so much with your phantom That perhaps the only thing left for me Is to become a phantom among phantoms A shadow a hundred times more shadow Than the shadow that moves and grows Moving brightly over the sun dial of your life