Sindhu Sesh

Been down and out for the longest time Sipping on bottles of Frosty Jack Hanging up off of the kirbside PIcking up pennies and smoking crack What you know about being homeless Hopeless, broken and broke and fat What you know about being nervous Worthless, ruthless and holding back Bit my tongue Lit another spliff when the shift gets done Twisted one Darkest thoughts haunting me all of the pain that I've caused Ghost in the shell Broken in hoping they throw me in jail Blood in the ring when they're ringing the bell Sadako clawing my way out the well, well Back from the dead RIpping the plug out the back of my bald head Chip another rock and a whack it before bed Never want to stop but I want it to all end Can never get enough and I suffer from demons Telling me to cut and deliver a warning Feeling like I'm severed I'm lost and mourning Hearing my kids cries at night they're calling Right What you gonna do when the big bad wolf Comes knocking at your door, huh tell me that Didn't even care for the money no more Rack it up then blow it on crack Notes wrapped up tight in a tube like shape When I sniff those packs What you really know about losing everything that you have And then making it back Slit my wrists Cut my veins Drain my blood Drown my shame Grab that shotgun, cock that back Aim it at my head top, fuck my brain I don't wanna feel love I don't wanna be loved I just wanna feel pain I don't wanna feel joy I don't wanna feel trust Just make me pay Racking up fines Black leather trench coat covered in shite Back to the friend zone every night And I cannot get a woman despite how I try No replies How was your day just fine How is your life just fine Are you okay, I'm fine I'll be okay just give it some time Yes, I know what I've done to deserve this I'm guilty, accepted I'm living with curses I's stealing and begging My soul needed purging Resurfaced, I'm back on the throne with a purpose And God only knows it's the loneliest road When you're out on your own and there's no one to hold Tell me who gives a fuck No, you can't let it show Cause the world doesn't care for a man all alone What you gonna do when the big bad wolf Comes knocking at your door, huh tell me that Didn't even care for my life Now I'm right back home on the family patch Bore my torch as I walk down a long dark winding path What you really know about losing everything that you have And then making it back