Feels Like

So what I bun a spliff wonder not think

Stutter when I spit stand out from others kids

I sink when I think deep stumble when I drink

Hurts when it hits me like any other thing

Tell everybody listening youre proud to be different

Cause im sick of deep thoughts cold nights shivering

So distant when I live it cause I feel it deep down

Am I living in an instant I could see it leave now

I know its been a while but we really needa speak

Mums struggling with money I aint seen her in a week

Shes been working late nights so her family can eat

Although we dont appreciate what she does its so peak

So bleak when I speak like I aint got a loada stuff

Like I aint got a family and friends who show a loada love

For real I got it good not the best but still better than

Some unfortunate people I seen in this weather dmn

Its true what they say when it rains it pours

You dont know what you got till its gone if it yours

I guess I need some guidance and a little bit of faith

Cause I aint feeling great weather hit me with the rain

And I figured since my girl left I been feeling pain

I dont mean to blame for it driving me insane

Now nothing feels the same even what I wrote hurts

Feeling like screaming at the ceiling til my throat burns

It feels like real life isnt what it seems

But still I feel like im living in a dream

So will I wake up another normal teen

Cause til I do im just chillin with the fiends

It feels like real life isnt what it seems

But still I feel like im living in a dream

So will I wake up another normal teen

Cause til I do im just chillin with the fiends

It feels like n0body supports me in what I do

Family aint proud of me just a good for nothing youth

I told them I auditioned for britains got talent

But they wouldnt give a fck if I told them I had gotten through

Dont cry when ive forgotton you you were never there

Fck the haters when you chat to me youll be forever aired

Im not the worst of the worst im a down to earth person

Done dirt that deserves birds so my karma cant be working

Still dont blurt words that I am not concerned with

Learn to let it burn is how you know you really earned it

Determined to merk it in every word I write

Said I was swag then swag now they were never right

Hurting deep inside internally burning in my eyes

They will never ride never clever enough

They dont measure for my level let em tremble when I write

Sense terror on my trebble cause I rebel in my lines

It feels like real life isnt what it seems

But still I feel like im living in a dream

So will I wake up another normal teen

Cause til I do im just chillin with the fiends

It feels like real life isnt what it seems

But still I feel like im living in a dream

So will I wake up another normal teen

Cause til I do im just chillin with the fiends

Flow like devils in my mind thats what it feels like

Go with the cards you been dealt cause no deals right

I feel like the worlds on top like a rock

I feel like im falling and I just cant stop

Cause this weights too much too fcked

I just clocked the clock so now im in a rush

I can see the seconds counting down

So someone tell me who the fcks counting now