Self Destruct

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith If I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same Staring at a screen to get through night and day It's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along Upside down and nothing's where it belongs self destruct or fix me up? Do I tear the seams or stitch em up? If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun But I can never do that I can never do that I can never do that, oh my god Maybe I'm clueless Ignorant to what the truth is Can't run or hide, baby, it's useless I know that I've been playing stupid I gotta save myself for me and for no one else Before I decay or melt Or wither away in hell Tired of acting like it's fine Wish I could speak my fucking mind When I'm here, my tongue is tied When I'm there, I'm free to fly I need to get away from here Ignore all my biggest fears Feel the sounds ring through my ears Cause I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along Upside down and nothing's where it belongs Self destruct or fix me up? Do I tear the seams or stitch em up? If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun But I can never do that I can never do that I can never do that, oh my god