Moonwalk

It’s 9:30pm

I’m here sitting with this voice in my head

I’m here sipping on a lil sumthin that’s red

And sweet

Yes I’m

Searching for something that I know I won’t find

Getting direction from the voice that keep on plaguing my mind

Some people might call me crazy

I think some people are right

Some people might call me stupid

I think some people are right

I call myself self-destructive

I hate to think that I’m right

Some people don’t call me ever

(Nobody calls me)

But I never pick up the phone

Tonight I’m laying in my bedroom alone

It feels like nothing really matters

Yo I’m light as a stone

I can’t stop staring at my wall and all that damage design

That angry hole in the wall gonna get forgotten in time

That anger deep in my body gonna get forgotten in wine

I think somebody should stop me I’m on a crazy decline

I think that all of my issues are in the way I’m designed

I think somebody should help me to find a sweeter sublime

While I’m..

Searching for something that I know I won’t find

Getting direction from the voice that keep on plaguing my mind

I wanna fester in my beautiful dilutions

Someone lock me in a institution for I lose it please

I wanna fester in my beautiful dilutions

Someone lock me in a institution for I lose it please

I’m moon walking on ideas and attributions

Ignoring every

Every possible solution

It’s 5:50pm

I think I’m lonely I’m in need of a friend

But I’m annoying so they need the conversation to end

I know if I lose myself I’ll have to make my amends

But I’d rather mend by diving in the medication again

Oh please somebody help me

I’m so far from okay

I’m grieving I’m unhealthy I can’t shake it away

Oh please somebody tell me that they need me to stay

‘Cause I got this feeling in my stomach that I’m dying today

Do you got a feeling in your stomach that I lie to your face

If you got a feeling in your stomach that I’m ugly you’re right

I got this feeling in my chest that I’m just way out of place

That heavy feeling in my chest don’t let me sleep through the night

Oh Abba do you love me do you hate what I do

Oh Abba would you help me become greater for you

Heavenly Father I think that I’m on my seventh time falling

I’m so unworthy I can hear that isolation is calling

And so I

I wanna fester in my beautiful dilutions

Someone lock me in a institution for I lose it please

I’m moon walking on ideas and attributions

Ignoring every

Every possible solution