Using Again

I'm living low down and I am using again I'm hating my name 'cause I'm cursed like my kin And if I should see you before I'm condemned I hope you're deceived by the webs that I spin And I wish I was who I appear 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror Lost deep inside of my dirty old soul Some starry-eyed boy never taught self control The cost of my living was more than I planned So I held the needle like a gun in my hand And I wish I was who I appear 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror The memories I've got torture my head And I don't know God but I heard he was dead And if I am wrong and in judgement I stand I will not repent 'cause I don't give a damn You can send me to Hell with the rest of my friends And I wish I was who I appear 'Cause I despise the man in the mirror I'm living low down and I am using again