Fall Back

I'm a house made of glass when it's hailing

I'm a plane when the engines are failing

Sky fall into stormy seas

You say you don't want that for me

I'm the air that you've started exhaling

I'm a train on the verge of derailing

I'm about to soar off the tracks

But I can't ever admit that

So why, why do I bend the truth, say I'm done with you

Lie, I'd stop if I could but it's what I'm wired to do

I, hate myself or hate the place my heart is at, but I couldn't ever say that, so I fall back.

I could say that I love you and mean it,

But you'll twist up my words til I'm bleeding

Why am I so terrified

Of seeing myself through your eyes?

And I'm not perfect, but dammit, I'm healing

But this head-over-heart is deceiving

War between body and soul

But you're all that I've ever known

So why, why do I bend the truth, say I'm done with you

Lie, I'd stop if I could but it's what I'm wired to do

I, hate myself or hate the place my heart is at, but I couldn't ever say that, so I fall back.

So why, why do I mend the wound, stitch it up if you

Lie, like you don't give a fuck, 'cause that's what you're wired to do

I, want you or just want the way that you attach

'Cause I can't love someone like that,

So I fall back.