Don't Wanna Have To

I should surrender

I’m losing all faith

Feeling things that words

Could never explain

I’m barely breathing

From bearing the weight

Of all the healing pain

My heart is aching

For the days that we’ve lost

This isn’t living

It’s repaying the cost

Each night I’m counting

But still at a loss

Of what we’re living for

I know I have to be strong

I know I have to be brave

It’s an uphill climb

To reach the end of each day

Been getting good at saying

“I will pull through”

But if I’m honest

Don’t wanna have to

On the surface

I’m just courage on show

But underneath this sinking feeling’s

Penetrating my bones

Is it any wonder

That I'm wanting to go?

Back to the better days

I used to know?

I know I have to be strong

(I know I have to be strong)

I know I have to be brave

It’s an uphill climb

To reach the end of each day

Been getting good at saying

“I will pull through”

But if I’m honest

Don’t wanna have to…

I keep my head up

For everyone else

But I’m losing everything including myself

Believe better days are yet to come

But if I’m honest

You know we have to be strong

I know we have to be brave

It’s an uphill climb

To reach the end of each day

Been getting good at saying

“I will pull through”

But if I’m honest

Don’t wanna have to

Oh

Don’t wanna have to