beating myself up

Why am I no good at goodbyes? You showed me every way out Want to think I'm one of a kind But it gets way too, too loud Used to get professional help Too scared of what they found I slick, can't enough of beatin', beatin' myself Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up I slick, can't enough of beatin', beatin' myself Boxin' matches held in my mirror Can't ever seem to win them These, these days I sit in my window Hopin' to see it clearer Bad advice I get from my friends And yet I choose to hear it Used to come down hard on myself Would put my heart right in it I slick, can't enough of beatin', beatin' myself Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up (oh-oh-oh-oh) Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up (oh-oh-oh-oh) Up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up (oh-oh-oh-oh) I slick, can't enough of beatin', beatin' myself Deep down, I want to stay but still Can't find no solid ground, I, I, I, I I slick beat Beatin' myself up (up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up) Beatin' myself up (up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up) Beatin' myself up (up, up, up, up, up, up, up, up) Beatin' myself I slick, can't enough of beatin', beatin' myself