Reflection

I been losin' my way, scared I'm losin' my faith

All the people that know me just know the Lance that I fake

I'm standin' in front of my mirror, starin' at all that I hate

Not the man that I wanna be, but I won't ever take

All the initiative I know I gotta have to make changes

Eventually, I know I have to pay for my wages, but

Right now, I just wanna stay in all of my cages

Cause the feelin' is great and she gon' be here somewhere around 8:00

As soon as that's over, I go through all that I told ya's, man

It's never worth it, in the moment, I get urges

When she sendin' me pictures, threw a text and started flirtin

I haven't seen her in months, she's tryna cope with her hurt

Just broke up with the person that she shouldn't converse with

But look at me talkin', I'm sittin' here doin' worse

Somewhere in between all this, she blocked my number and skirted

Right after I did everything, I could to see you in person

Now I'm just talkin' to God

Haven't heard any answers lately, but not even shocked

I've been livin' so reckless, I don't feel worthy to talk

I've been askin' forgiveness so much, I finally just stopped

My actions said that I'm not, feel like I'm stuck in a box

Stare at all of the clocks

As I go through this life, I feel like my time's gonna stop

The person that I wanna be is not me, I feel like he's locked

Somewhere deep in between on my knees, I'm prayin

I got a second chance comin' around, feel I let everyone down

I've been doin' everything to keep my feet on the ground

But I'm fallin', yeah, that can't wait for the sound

Always tryna catch me slip, there when I turn around

Yeah, know why

Cause Lance don't go with the flow

Plenty, people tell me things I already know

Which really, honestly, gets under my skin the most

Like you don't live what you preach

And your life is a hoax

Who said that you could Critique

With all your skill home alone

Sittin' in the nosebleeds and takin' pics from your phone

Man, it's silly, but you know that it's really

The world that we live in with all these open opinions

Man, I don't get it

Act like y'all own a percentage

Y'all shouldn't have the privilege, yeah