Trying to Cope

I'll spend ages on these lyrics 26 I'm only starting Guess I always seek perfection All I'll find is my own depression I'm so pessimistic It's not realistic Sometimes it makes me sick But after all these years I'm still around Lights on me Gotta entertain that's on me I like the way it feels (ecstasy) Yeah I could stay up the stage (endlessly) That's what make me keep going Keep going like we're meant to Get into the big zone Sometimes I get real down Yeah look at what we did so far Windblown I spend so much time in this Depressing thoughts in the evening I wanna succeed, wanna make it How can I be sure it'll be worth it Can't get myself to try sometimes I lie to myself I procrastinate Anxiety got me abdicate Lying on my couch Waiting for the fame to Pop up on a silver plate Gotta finish all the work Otherwise I can't feel good about myself But I'm burning everything I wrote Page after page, it's absolute nonsense Never good enough Never really worth the time that I spent The words in my mind Coming out of my pen They're turning to dust When I read 'em again And there's So much left to do But now I'm stuck on the details Tried this puzzle so many times That I fucked up the pieces Life goes by and I don't wanna miss it Yeah I hope I don't erase these lyrics And after the struggles And after the doubts Will we ever see the end? Sometimes we lost ourselves but This is what we're meant to This is what we're meant to be Yeah after the ups And after the downs Yeah after all these years We're still around Now look at me 27 still right here Life keeps moving without me Sometimes it feels like Spending so much time for nothing What the fuck is the point of this? Why are we still persisting yeah So boring I spent ages on these lyrics 28 It's far from finished Guess I Always sought perfection All I found is my own depression I'm so pessimistic It's not realistic Sometimes it makes me sick But after all these years I'm still around