Lyrics

I've been told not to dwell on the Past All it's gonna do is hold me back and keep
Me at last Times I was in the car thinking let me just
Crash I'm going fast enough to just leave my life
In the past I came close so many times, thoughts of suicide
Well, should I die
Captions saying fly high or places thats filled with memory and pain when they
Drive by And those thoughts, they just stay with me
I hate this type of pain and pray to be in a better place
When it's all said and done and I'm the one they love
No matter where I'm coming from and even when I come back
I hope it's me that's gonna be coming back Not just a shell that's filled with spite
And emotions is what I lack Where I can say I'm truly happy
And that's a fact where they can see me sprinting on my victory lap
Got people I owe if I make it there People that cared enough to have my share
That worked so hard to help me clear my air Who lightened the load on my shoulders
When it was way too much to bear They believed in me when I wouldn't dare
People who listen to all of my despair Cause life just isn't fair
All my severed connections Thought if I lost them all then I'd be better
Respected Hate that all my best friends just had to
Turn into lessons And what to do with them is what I was left
To question Girl these feelings won't ever fade but I'm
Done fighting You were my light and shining moon
Don't think you truly understand how hard I'm trying to
Move on and be okay but I can't help the urge to find you too
My emotions bouncing back and forth Hoping we leave this last resort
Hope I sign a deal, book us flights and rent us out a whole resort
All them honeys screaming and cheering all the tours
But I'ma focus on who I'm doing it for Hope you make it back before I move on and
Close the door
There's a process to these things and I understand But I wish we woulda just stuck to our future
Plan I'll forever be your man, hope you get what
I'm saying Cause this shit is taking turns and it's making
Me look insane But I got faith in the future so I'm sure
I'll be okay
I'm sure
I'm in and out of consciousness The sloppiness of my emotions is the only
Thing that's stopping this Keep talking shit and you gon' be on the
Saint's naughty list I'm finally making peace with this new world
That I'm a part of Finally moving on from the feelings that we
Called our love Finally moving on from those old times and
It's the start of An era where I take all of my brothers out
Of the mud They gon' be the ones that are backstage on
The tours We gon' be the ones to go out leave it all
On the floor They gon' be the reason that I make it right
Through the doors Grateful they gon' be the reason I don't
Fumble anymore And I'm forever indebted who you think this
For Dylan gonna be the one drowning in all the hundreds
Calo gonna be the one on all the tours and he gon' love it
Rayann help me realize that all of this ain't for nothing
Now I have to be the one that goes and turns this into something
Mos wanted is out in poppin' My shit is not worth a bumpin
No way am I okay I'm tired of all this frontin
Living everyday diluting This shit is extremely numbing
But like I said I gotta turn this into something
I'm gon' make it to the other side And on the other side
I promise I'm gon' be lovin' I promise I'm gon' prevail
No matter what ships have sailed No matter the shit that fails
No matter what tales they tell I'm chillin' sittin' in jail
I swear I'm gon' make the bail I swear I'm gon' escape hell
And trust they'll be surprised because of how far that I fell
But this shouldn't come as a shock cause I got this shit here online
And know there's nobody stoppin' me or droppin' me
I'll be around forever holdin' on I got my tether
I'm reignin' supreme and that's the future forecast
Just cause Jaybug is better Cause of what I do with these letters
Replacing the trendsetters Compression I send pressure
Her best friend I send pleasure Just met her I'm leg spreader
The lessons I'm professor Pro-choice I'ma pro let her
Intelligent pro-header Shit talkin' let's go wet em
I'm clever never forget it I'm the king and they gon' sing it
Bring my flowers cause I tower over all these phony rappers
How I laugh I'm how I pass I'm like a joint that's next in the rotation
Presidential welcome to inauguration
Written by: Jaelen Cardona
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