My Only Reason Why

Don't let it bother me But it still bothers me I know you're not my property But you feel like my property It feels like you belong with me Most of them just played with me And most them just toyed with me But know that you love me? I'm not even sad but I be eating away all my fingernails Because my stress is so bad "Personal attention" more like "Self destruction" But all of a sudden my life has a reason when I had no reason Hope to own a phone, never ringing I'm the only reason that I'm ever still smiling I'm the only reason that I'm fucking still breathing And I'm the only reason that my money still coming in I guess she has the right to say I'm different Guess she has the right to say I'm on the same damn shit That everyone else is about, I don't feel special And I know damn well I am You ever been in such a bad place, self doubt, only you can pull yourself out? Well let me tell you about how I used to shut my mouth Because the pain was way too loud No one ever gave a shit Most people probably think nowadays, I suck It's probably coz back then I was so fucked up Didn't give a fuck, I tell you what sucks It's you, when you on my nuts It's like you never wanted me to get cleaned up and sober for what? I got a little secret, you can do it without em And Even just a little list of taste is fucken poison I don't need to play with poison coz I know it's venom I won't play with no more lighters coz I know they fire Don't let it bother me But it still bothers me I know you're not my property But you feel like my property It feels like you belong with me Most of them just played with me And most them just toyed with me But know that you love me? I'm not even sad but I be eating away all my fingernails Because my stress is so bad "Personal attention" more like "Self destruction" But all of a sudden my life has a reason when I had no reason Hope to own a phone, never ringing I'm the only reason that I'm ever still smiling I'm the only reason that I'm fucking still breathing And I'm the only reason that my money still coming in I guess she has the right to say I'm different Guess she has the right to say I'm on the same damn shit That everyone else is about, I don't feel special And I know damn well I am