Worst Time of Year

This time of year always sucks but it's worse now You were the buffer between me and break down Now round the table saying why we're grateful I can't come up with one thought that's not hateful Mom got too drunk now she's trashing my dad We always swore we won't end up like that But now I get it how hurt turns to hatred And it eats you alive so I might as well say it How dare you just go Right when it got cold When you really know it's my worst time of year I'm forced to fake cheer With people I hate And you were the one thing that made it okay Now I'm trying to drink it off Wishing I could make it stop Yanking down the stupid lights So nobody can see me cry cause You had to just go Right when it got cold When you really know it's my worst time of year They're stuffing the stockings I'm stalking your page They ask what you're doing And what can I say? That I know for certain You're high at your mom's Cause you used to bring me Back when I belonged How dare you just go Right when it got cold When you really know it's my worst time of year I'm forced to fake cheer With people I hate And you were the one thing that made it okay Now I'm trying to drink it off Wishing I could make it stop Yanking down the stupid lights So nobody can see me cry cause You had to just go Right when it got cold When you really know it's my worst time of year Cause you know I hate the spirit Smiling for the photographs Fighting with my perfect family None of them have got my back Now I don't even want the presents Nothing that I could unwrap Could replace the way you saved me Worst time of year I'm forced to fake cheer With people I hate And you were the one thing that made it okay Now I'm trying to drink it off Wishing I could make it stop Yanking down the stupid lights So nobody can see me cry cause You had to just go Right when it got cold When you really know it's my worst time of year