Reminiscence

Doesn't make a difference

I fucked it up, you'd fix it

You left, thought you would miss this

No lie

Were you just a figment of imagination?

I can't tell if this is legit (if this is legit)

Ruminate on whether there was indication

Tell myself I'll never forget (forget, forget)

I was going left, you were cutting right

Play pretend and shut down feigning peace of mind

And now we're tryna fill the silence

I never guessed, but I coulda, right?

What's to worry 'bout now?

Got shit redefined

When they took your life away

No, I don't wanna waste more time

At 22 losing you made my state of mind

Something I'd hide inside

Embody strength for the ones who've cried

So I don't think I ever wanna waste more time

'Cause now I'm through tryna prove I'm not fake sometimes

Guess I outgrew needing to feel your eyes

Under my guise of truth conveyed

Now I know

To reminisce reveals the signs

I couldn't see 'em

Go, go on reveal 'em, come on

Oh God, it hurts to feel sometimes

Eyes on the ceiling

Conflict with no meaning at all

Just couldn't read between your lines

I couldn't read it

Fuck, it's so misleading, appalled

Why'd I believe your "I'll be fine's"?

I don't believe it

No, I don't believe in the fall

Got mites in my skin can't fight from within

Despise who I've been

Can't lie just to win

Your life was akin to light, lacking sin

Took flight from the wind

Held tight, lost my grip

Cut ties from the script

Lost sight, start to slip

Guard eyes with a sip

Keep tryna forget

Can't cry, hold it in

Get high and eclipse

Goodbyes for a bit

Defy, don't admit

Ask why, throw a fit (I fall to my knees)

Deny, take a hit (my heart rate's jumping)

Reply to assist (300 degrees)

July came and went (the blood starts pumping)

No time to exist (wait what do you mean?)

I'm fine, I insist (this can't be where it ends)

Combine what I missed

Write rhymes in the midst (no I just can't comprehend)

Design don't resist (they're looking at me)

I whine, pessimist (get up, sit up)

No spine, just a cyst

My mind starts to twist

Inclined to assist

Inside, fucking pissed

I tighten my fist

Got eyes full of mist

To reminisce reveals (the signs)

Oh God, it hurts to feel sometimes

Just couldn't read between your lines

Why'd I believe your "I'll be fine's"? (I don't believe it)

(No, I don't believe in the fall)

Doesn't make a difference (to reminisce reveals the signs)

I fucked it up, you'd fix it

You left, thought you would miss this (oh God it hurts to feel sometimes)