Alive and Unwell

I don't wanna wake up Can't cover up the pain with my makeup All these strangers rip me to shreds The beauty of the internet But I don't make it better You know I never have my shit together I'm a bad drunk, can't keep a job I'm a disappointment to my mom Think that I might lose it Damn, I feel so insecure If you ask me how I'm doing One, two, one, two, three, four I'm alive and unwell Some days I fucking hate myself No magic pill is gonna help But at least I'm thriving in hell Yeah, I'm alive and screwed up Ruining everything I touch I'm a hot mess, but guess what? I don't give a fuck Ooh Alive and unwell Ooh Alive and unwell It is what it is, I am who I am You can tell me what to do But I won't listen I'm a lost cause I'm a bit depressed I'm the worst even at my best Think that I might lose it Damn, I feel so insecure If you ask me how I'm doing One, two, one, two, three, four I'm alive and unwell Some days I fucking hate myself No magic pill is gonna help But at least I'm thriving in hell Yeah, I'm alive and screwed up Ruining everything I touch I'm a hot mess, but guess what? I don't give a fuck Ooh Alive and unwell Ooh Alive and unwell I'm alive and unwell, ohh Alive and unwell