ruin everything

I don't wanna feel right now

It's holding me back

Giving me heart attacks, a cardiac arrest

And I don't wanna breathe right now

Holding it in

'Cause if I do, that means I'm losing you again

And I like how you think it's gonna save me now

When nobody's gonna save me

How could you ever wanna fix this broken and alone?

Fuck, I ruin everything

But I was doing everything for you

The chemicals inside your brain

Tell me it's the fuckin' same for you

When I was slowly dying

Where were you?

Where were you?

When I was tryin' to fight it

Where were you?

Where were you?

Don't want to be myself

Tell me who does

I keep crawling out the skin I feel too much

And I wish you could see right now

The look in my eyes

You're the only one who never told me lies

And I like how you think it's gonna save me now

When nobody's gonna save me

How could you ever wanna fix this broken and alone?

Fuck, I ruin everything

But I was doing everything for you

The chemicals inside your brain

Tell me it's the fuckin' same for you

When I was slowly dying

Slowly dying

Where were you?

Where were you?

When I was tryin' to fight it

Tryin' to fight

Where were you?

Where were you?

Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah

Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah

Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah

Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah