Is Forever Even Long

Last night I made my mind up Today Ima go for it Probably leaving at the crack of dawn in case you were keeping track And I'm leaving with no plan b So just pray I make it back I done put up every dime with hopes that I would make it back Even tapped into the savings a few times when I should've stacked Suitcase feel like my home I'm on the road I'm always packed I'll never understand Somehow I find more peace in that Still trying to piece together strength to tell em that I'm done Can't be out here in the streets getting distracted when you the one Somebody taught me how to talk How to crawl How to run How to read Shoot a jumper Catch a ball Throw the ones How to count How to plan How to buy How to loan But nobody taught me how to change the world through a song And I'm out here on this path You understand why I feel alone I just want this here forever But is forever even long Is forever even long Way too scared to close my eyes It might be gone in a night I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point But that don't make it feel right I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart I just want this for life I swear I want this for life I remember ten plays was in my wildest imagination Happy they tuning in It didn't matter which song they playing In those days I was just grateful to be heard But seems nowadays my only concern is what I earn External factors strip the joy from the game And people scared to wear my cleats They blame it on a sprain They planted on the sideline I grew up cause the rain Who's in charge of average being rewarded with the fame Only I'm to blame if I let this work go in vain Only I'm to shame The wins and losses in my name I'm living in my purpose But my address still the same Only time they call when they know that it's something to gain I feel the lows when I'm high The toll that's it's taking on my soul to reply Entitlement I'm feeling Blame it solely on my pride And even if I really was owed all this time I wasn't owed all this time Is forever even long Way too scared to close my eyes It might be gone in a night I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point But that don't make it feel right I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart I just want this for life I swear I want this for life The internal clock is making sounds in my head Age is weighing now more than ever People I had written in my story that I would bless when I made it Are no longer here to piece the plot together I'm ripping out pages I'm writing new chapters It's touching all ages I'm like a true pastor I put truth on the shelves But lies move the sales faster Introduced em to my goals But it was met with their laughter But I ain't get the joke Mind roaming like the pope They catching wind of the boy I just know I'm bout to blow Word spreading coast to coast Back at home everybody toting poles like a vote I was always in my bag So I ain't never had to tote Tongue sharper than a blade Every verse cut throat They would bet on me the least Now respect is utmost It was always in the plan to use my voice to give hope And if time say the same I'll live forever through these quotes Is forever even long Way too scared to close my eyes It might be gone in a night I done did a lot of wrongs and still made it to this point But that don't make it feel right I can say it in a song but I mean this from the heart I just want this for life I swear I want this for life