Fought & Lost

I've only ever felt beauty

When I starved myself

But I didn't know love at all

And I've only felt pain

When I've purged my sins

And it was overflow

And I fought

And I've lost

And I fought

And I've won

And each day brings a new battle

And these scars on my heart

Shine like golden stars tonight

Went to bed dreaming of heaven

But I woke up in hell

All I hear is a siren call

If there's no one to save me

I guess I'll save myself

If I'm even worth saving at all

Cause I fought

And I've lost

And I've won

And each day brings a new battle

And these scars on my heart

Shine like golden stars tonight

Behind this disguise is

A dark secret that no one knows

Keep trying to fight it

I'm still spinning out of control

And I'm afraid it's starting to show

Only felt heard

When you put your words

In my mouth

Telling me I'll be ok

When you turn around

I spit them all out

Cause you don't hear me when I say

Behind this disguise is

A dark secret that no one knows

Keep trying to fight it

I'm still spinning out of control

And I'm afraid it's starting to show

And I'm afraid it's starting to show

I fought

And I've lost

But it came

At a cost

Cause I'm worse than I was before

I fought

And I lost

But it came

At a cost

Dripping on the bathroom floor

Behind this disguise is

A dark secret that no one knows

Keep trying to fight it

I'm still spinning out of control

And I'm afraid it's starting to show

I've only ever felt beauty

When I starved myself

But I didn't know love at all