Closer To the Edge (feat. Unkew Vick)

The condition I'm living in, I don't like none of that, bro

Right

I don't like none of that

I'm willing to get up and I'm willing to go get it for myself

Nobody can't get it for me, I'm gonna go get it for myself

That is that

I can't even talk to my siblings about some of this shit

cause only, only worried about it

Oh, it's hard for them

Oh

Oh, you gotta pray, you gotta do this

I've been praying, I've been doing this

I'm not gonna sit here and wait for a miracle to happen

I'm gonna go get it

Just like that, bro, I'm gonna go get it

If it's not coming to me, I'm gonna go find it

I be showing up for ****, knowing they ain't never show up

Pressure high, I get salty, but be knowing **** faulty

Wanna pay me for the verses when they really can't afford me

Wanna be around my presence, conversation get annoying

Times I really wanna die, but I be never speaking on it

Auntie saying talk to God, but I be calling, he ignore it

While I'm fighting with my demons, I can hear the reaper talking

I don't never let it stop me, I don't listen when he talking

Sending, but be praying, cause I know I got a calling

Wiping tears, whole damn time, my **** fighting tears

I get in my mind and I don't like it there

But if you ever need a vibe or feeling like you bout to die

You could always hit my line and I be right there

My brother say he on the ledge and getting closer to the edge

Brody smoke it up and talk it out, don't let this be the end

I know women be vindictive, but you gotta be a man

I ain't saying hide your feelings, but I know you understand

Don't let them see you doing bad, **** waiting on a chance

Like you digging in your pocket, never let them see your hand

Far as women, it's a bunch of them, could always get another one

You could be the best and they gon' always want another one

Remember I was young and dumb, thinking how I fell in love

Shit is just a part of life and bro we only getting one

Looking off the ledge, I hope you seeing how you being dumb

Getting off the ledge, I hope you knowing all you need is us

In the midst of dark shadows, all these demons I done battle

I was so close to drowning, by the time I learned to paddle

I was loading up that Smith & Wess, inside my grandma bathroom

I was reaching for the stars, but I got caught up by the half moon

Lately we been fucking, but my mental's somewhere else

I try to bury feelings with a shovel, fuck some help

I done broke her heart to the point that she despised me

Was crossed so many times, so when it happened, don't surprise me

Detergent for my dirt, it had you questioning my integrity

They tell me I'm a star, just stay alive for your destiny

They catch you with no whistle in the trenches, that's a penalty

Vic calling my phone and he having Kanye moments

He know it in his heart that he should be a bigger artist

I felt that in my soul, but real **** win regardless

The conditions that I'm living in, it got my heart vulnerable

How you gon' betray me after all the love I'm showing you

Was never scared to death, I seen it happen to the best

I can't think I'm not the rest

Sent a message to the Lord and he just left me on the delivered

My dreams was unraveling, my attitude was bitter

I was deep in that water, couldn't help it not to shiver

Having deep conversations with the man inside the mirror

They tell me do the right thing, cause you got true talent

No one for in and one for out, cause you gon' lose balance

Nights where I done cried, but they'll probably say I'm weak

If I stayed inside the trenches, probably never reach my peak

I was an angry youth, I rebelled when they would teach

I used to rather drown before I grabbed a hand to reach

I gotta stop resorting to the pills when I need peace

As these days going, I don't see myself growing

I was on my last when my BM, she was showing

Wake, send you a star, put that G down, stop toting

Was in that dark place, grandpa definitely had me broken

But I was deep outside with the members trying to get motion

I grew up plucking roaches out my Captain Crunch cereal

My vision's been a period, and it's home, it ain't no love

So he forced me to turn to blood

Around him ain't no hope, his family tree is full of thugs

He can't talk about his pain, so he lean into the drugs

You always right, I'm always wrong, that's lately how it seems

Lil' Brody, he a glitch that shot me to always green

She's seen the bullshit clinics, never seen no one get married

Different **** in her home, her safe zone is like an alley

You know I feel her deeply, but we've got demons that we carry

You know I feel her deeply, but we've got demons that we carry

Pleasure turns to the pain, or the lessons learned from the strain

Or the questions burned in my brain, about whether love is humane in its touch

These thoughts are like salmon swimming upstream in the tears of your deceit

Fighting the current hurt that kills more than is created by the chaos of our intertwined emotions

Chaotic because the anchor of Eros' arrow has been plucked from the vessel of my undying infatuation

Separation not as simple as the distance between us

My mind no longer possessed by the demons that have been the overseers of my enslavement to your lies

The seeds of these lies rooted so deeply they've cracked the foundation of what we once shared

Allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside to gush out like a river

Ripping the image of our future together from my thoughts as violently and as brutally as if it were a child being taken from its mother's arms

I'm left surrounded in darkness, but I refuse to be swallowed by it

My loneliness light the night air, invisible to the eye, obvious to the touch

In this cold uncomfortableness

Yet if I could do it all over again, I'd do it in the same skin I'm in

To lay down and let love die, just stay down and let love lie

Nah, nah, not I

I'll stay around and let love fly

Even though I've seen its darkest form, deceit

Nothing else can taste this warm or feel this sweet