Remi

At the ultrasound, I went silent

Holding back tears I was fighting

Smiled and then started crying

I see you

And as you grow, I’m reminded

How truly precious this life is

I’m nervous, but I’m excited

To see you

Hold you close

United as I look in your eyes

Hold you close

And provide what you need to have a life

That’s better than mine

I’m terrified

Hysteric and happy at the same time

But I try not to show

So many waves of emotion that I can’t keep straight

Knowing that you’ll be grown one day

My only job is to love you and show the way

Hoping that I don’t make mistakes

Hearing your heartbeat

Knowing you came from me

Finally complete

I see you

You’re like the spark of a match before it’s thrown

The fire inside me slowly grows

My reason to fight, you give me hope

Peace in my soul that I’m holding onto

All of the love I’ve never shown

Was saved with my heart inside a hole

To gift to you when we bring you home

As I hold you close and sing to you