Machine

So here I find myself

Tired to the fuckin' bone

Nightmares haunting me

Of what is yet to come

I've lost

All my trust

All my faith

All that's left is disgust

An all-consuming machine

It feasts on sorrow and despair

It will devour inner peace

A broken world beyond repair

Beyond Repair

Shattered memories

of genuine smiles

Obscure visions

of serenity and bliss

Why do these thoughts feel hostile to me

When the fuck have I become like this

Why do these thoughts feel hostile to me

When the fuck have I become like this

How can I proceed?

I'm stuck in a maze

How can I see?

I'm surrounded by haze

When I see myself

I'm repelled by my face

How can I learn?

When all wisdom's ablaze

I'm drained by excuses

For who I want to be

I'm done with abuses

Of broken ones like me

I'm lying awake every night

With terrors on my mind

Should I just end this life

Or take back what was mine?