Grey Lines

I’ll wake up tonight

Not knowing what’s right

Did that happen or did I

Pretend that I had a life

Did I fool you too

Discard and arrest you

I didn’t know you were trying

I didn’t know you were trying

To understand me

Not use reflexively

I didn’t know you were loving

This man who feels he’s always dying

These grey lines

Dissolve in time

And leave you with

A self-defined

Or denied

Now it’s too late to return

Too late to reclaim what I spurned

The details are all left up to me

To decide if I believe

Am I black or am I white

Am I brave or am I frightened

I don’t know where I am going

I don’t know who I’m becoming

These grey lines

Dissolve in time

And leave you with

The bottom line

The quintessence

The self refined

Or oversimplified

These grey lines

Dissolve in time

And leave you with

The clearest sign

Of who you were

Before you chose

To obscure the path

That leads to growth

I’ve chosen this life

Not knowing if I’m right

Rejected the obvious or did I

Act out of bitterness & spite

The choice it was made up for me

Indecision and apathy

I didn’t know you could see me

I didn’t know I was being