I'm so tired that I can't sleep
As strange as that seems
We say it all the time
We sing it all the time
But I don't think we know what it means
It's when your brain is shutting down
Or when your life is turning out
Exactly how
You never thought it'd be
When you're ignoring all your friends
You're drowning in the shallow end
You're standing tall as you can without any conviction in it
'Cause you don't really wanna be here anymore
And I don't really wanna be here anymore
I don't really wanna be here anymore
I don't really wanna be here anymore
I am stronger and I'm smarter and I'm faster
And I'm harder when it counts
'Cause I am better now
I'm better
I'm not anxious, I'm composed
So when I'm breaking no one knows
Cause I'm the best - but even better now
Since I stopped blowing up their phones
And I only cry when I'm alone
I took that picture off my home screen
I do my breathing exercises
Count my senses back from five
And all my plants are somehow still green
I practice words of affirmation
Instead of drinking in my basement
I tell myself to repeat after myself repeating after me
But after this, can I go home like You promised
Please after this, can I go home like You promised
