The Best I Can Do

Goodmorning, dirty sheets and tightness in the chest Count to 10 and focus on the breath 40-minute showers, 40-minutes to relax Meditate and cry for what feels like forever I'm free and I guess I have to work real hard for that I'm free, I think, most of the time This week I'm sorta drinking from the cup This week I kept myself from fucking up It ain't one for the book and it ain't one for the shredder There's couple of ups and that shit fucking matters I'm free and I guess I have to work real hard for that I'm free, I think, most of the time I've been told "You can make it if you want it" But, I don't really believe in anything No, I can't wait for it I don't know if it's dawning, but it's the best I can do Rummage around for a calling or a new point of view It's radical to live in the present, to return to place that you knew They told me not to invest in But, then I saw it in you And, I think starting to feel it too Congratu-fucking-lations, you're in luck! The net weight of existence isn't much As of now, I'm little more alive than before And whatever I wanted last year, I don't want anymore I don't know if it's dawning, but it's the best I can do Rummage around for a calling or a new point of view It's radical to live in the present, to return to place that you knew They told me not to invest in But, then I saw it in you And, I think starting to see it too Another decade of sentience and I gutted it Hell, you can't say I haven't tried I guess the universality of mid-twenties debauchery Means we all carry a piece inside Is this coming to terms with worst of it? Or, just a well-deserved break? In a world that will just take what it can take I know you're feeling it too What the hell, I know you're felt it too when it got harder and harder But I'll find a way Let me just sweat this one out Let me out of this place Well, shit got harder and harder, but I'll find a way Let me just sweat this one out Sweat this one out