Don't Go Outside

We don’t go outside, freedoms manmade, my demons know to hide

I see the landscape, my hand scraping on the smoldered rock

Addiction fever, never written from a sober thought

The snowbird knocks, constant on windows when dark

Bulldozing coke with the indica then start dozing off

Mother told me I ain’t wash my hands before I spoke to God

Isolation forced my hand, I’m living through the coldest times

It’s hard living when knowing **** hope you die

Jotted writtens cope with my paranoia of downfall and untold demise

Gunsmoke surprises if I come through while I’m holding mine

Your love couldn’t find me I was torn apart, and so it was

I’m pouring cups of ethanol and coughing up the smoker's lung

I wanna fucking die and I don’t know why

I couldn’t say for certain, but then my pride of what if I fail, or to remain the burden

Not arrested cause the sword was rested cause he maimed a person

I’m fucked up but you’ll only see it when I make the verses

Fuck you, it’s still fuck you and always will be

Can’t you see them fucking (I love you ) tryna kill me?

(Stop fucking calling me)

Fuck you, it’s still fuck you and always will be

Can’t you see them fucking (I love you) tryna kill me?

This what we call culture, stature tall I walk forward

Crack withdrawal the halls noisy

Crack the door, it’s horrifying

Crack the door, it’s military weapons and abhorrent violence

Crack the door, you see all of the pain I put in notes and writing

Crack the door, you see the reflection of all your folks you lied to

Crack the door, you’ll see what almost lead you to the fucking final

Crack the door and let ‘em all in, let every secret find you

Crack the door, you let the war win because the warmth defied you

Crack the door, I hold a knife to

Crack the door, it’s back and forth

Crack the door, it’s dad and mom the match is short on happy source

Crack the door, it’s everything you missed cause only rap important

Crack the door, is everything you spit and souls so untie a soul poltergeist

Somebody tapped me on my shoulder, don’t go outside!