Ponder

And I was so scared

Of what

Everything could be

Something new

Scares

Every

One 

And I could

Feel the weight 

I could

Feel the pressure

Still

Wondering

Whether

The path was

Wrong 

Twentysixteen

Was a year of choices

A lot of things

And a lot of dreams just one

Mind to think

And myself to lean

On

At that

Time I was thinking

Without interest

During my free time without

Commitment

I was certain that

I'd figure things

Out

Other things were occupying

My mind I was younger and I

Didn't get what I had

In my hands and I

Neglected took for

Granted now I

Look back maybe

It wasn't as bad as I remembered

Where would I be what would I

See with these

Eyes

Who would I be

Still wondering

Sometimes in my free time I do

Ponder

Cannot get the answer that I'm

Looking for

Gazing into stars I'm reaching

No conclusions but that it is

Only me that I

Want to be

Now

Having that amount of

Free time

Seems now kinda wasted in

Somebody's hands that didn't even

Know what to do and just

Threw it all away

I had friends

I felt so light

Got no stress in my

Mind

I recall

That concept

Now missing from my

Life

I often think about it with

Nostalgic eyes

Decision were made

Can't look behind

Now I should just

Focus on my life

Reaching

My

Goals

Leaving my

Comfort zone

Facing

The

World

Finally

Grow

Sometimes in my free time I do

Ponder

Cannot get the answer that I'm

Looking for

Gazing into stars I'm reaching

No conclusions but that it is

Only me that I

Want to be

Sometimes in my free time I do

Ponder

Cannot get the answer that I'm

Looking for

Gazing into stars I'm reaching

No conclusions but that it is

Only me that I

Want to be

Now

That I

Want

To be

Now

That I

Want