Traumatized

It was 2012 i looked in mama eyes

She was so amazed my baby sister just arrived

Just getting off the bus rushed in the house i was surprised

And i start crying cause when you grow up yo life gon be fine

As a youngin coming up? i dreamed about dying

Talking to god don't take me away til i'm bout 65

So i start losing all my close ones round me

Lost soul can you find me

Bad people around me

Try not to give up ona bright days but ain't no sun around me

Ohh ooh oh

My life been traumatized

It was times throughout the day i thought bout suicide

But i can't lie ian want my sister stressed out cause i died

But lemme tell you bout the time when i was up in florida

We in daytona at the beach ask did i like it sorta

Loving the feeling almost went to deep innat water

Wahn for my sister i'll be dead floating across the border

I tell my ex i almost drowned all she say is oh

So i called goat, tell em what halm he like damn bro

Tell me be careful every step i take and i'm like sho

I'll hit you back ina li minute finna hit the road

But my life been so traumatized

You can look me deep up in the eyes

Look so deep you'll see blood n tears from all the times i cried

Bitches lied

Stab me right in the heart n left me dying

You won't see em tell the truth i feel i'm blind

But i'm traumatized