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The last 365's really messing with my mind Few highs, few lows, few lows and few highs Never-ending cycle, can I get a hold of it? Something new happens and I lose all control of it I'm trying to let go of it, remain optimistic Recite in October but my mind's still conflicted I'm having trouble putting my faith in religion When people's lives are taken when they just started living Hard to stay focused Now when my boy lost his mom with less than a year's notice So in the same decade he lost his father and his mother He's in my thoughts and so is his younger brother Trying to move forward Can't pick a direction Everything that's happened has altered my perspective I hit the restart button, make a record for the man in the mirror These are Matthew's reflections Fourth chapters in a story of Matt I needed a fresh start, I needed a format It's too personal when I record tracks It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt It's not a concept, it's my life These are all the things I think about at night Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt Boy lost his mom, it had me thinking a lot About my life, should I start rethinking the plot? Because I've always been about tomorrow and not today Which explains every one of the decisions I made But what if I die young? Tomorrow never comes Would my work be a waste? Tough thought to face Why work for the future if the future's never there? But if you choose not to care, it leaves you unprepared it the crossroads Should I live for the moment? Piss away my money, lose focus and I know that so many people have a dream like I do How come they get to have their cake and eat too? How come they go out and not just sit in this room And make tunes about how I am so damn consumed By this life that I chose? Don't know what to say Perhaps another record might help me find a way Fourth chapters in a story of Matt I needed a fresh start, I needed a format It's too personal when I record tracks It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt It's not a concept, it's my life These are all the things I think about at night Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt Fourth chapters in a story of Matt I needed a fresh start, I needed a format It's too personal when I record tracks It wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt It's not a concept, it's my life These are all the things I think about at night Tonight, let me vent, I'll speak on a track Wasn't written for you, it was written for Matt My sensei told me back in the day That I'm responsible for every loss that I take I really took those words to heart Because when things went wrong, I figured that it could only be my fault And now I'm here without a light in the dark So I know I have to write this smart So if tomorrow never comes, at least I said what I had to And I present the fourth chapter of Matthew So if tomorrow never comes, at least I said what I had to And I present the fourth chapter of Matthew