33

I remember

When I use to hide what I felt inside

I remember

When I felt like I wasn't built like the other guys

I remember

Not wanting to be here so I thought I should take my life

I remember

I'd just sit in the dark and just cry

Now that I'm 33

I can still see the little boy inside of me

Now that I'm 33

I don't have to hide from the pain that ran deep

Now that I'm 33

I'm walkin on clouds cuz now I'm smiling so genuinely

Now that I'm 33

I can let go of the past cuz now I know that I'm free

I remember

Being raped time after time not wanting to tell my mom who loved me

I remember

Fighting all the time cuz I had so much held in I was angry

I remember

Havin' random sex cuz I thought that's how you showed lovin'

I remember

When I didn't put me first that's scary

Now that I'm 33

I can still see the little boy inside of me

Now that I'm 33

I don't have to hide from the pain that ran too deep

Now that I'm 33

I'm walkin on clouds cuz now I'm smiling so genuinely

Now that I'm 33

I can let go of the past cuz now I am free

Now that I'm 33

Ugh, now that I'm 33

Bruh, I made it

Its along ass 33 years

But I'm here

I'm alive

I'm well

I'm healthy

I'm still breathing

I'm 33

Happy birthday to me