Ever Since You Moved (Down the Street)

Ever since you moved

Down the street

I've gotten in the habit of driving by your house

Every evening

I didn't know where you lived at first but I used context clues

To find your Honda Accord

Parked in the lot with the thing dangling from the rearview

I do it because it's the only way that

I can feel connected

We can't be together

We can't even talk

We can't because it's bad for me

The third time time that I drove by

You were outside

You didn't see me but I saw all the triggers

The fit, the smoke, the dog

The boyfriend

And all I wanted

Was to get out of my car

Or beep the horn

But instead I drove on

Hyperventilating, wondering what the fuck's wrong with me