Pathway (feat. Michael Anthony Trapp)

I want deliverance, I want relief I want beliverance, I want no grief I want happy massed, is that really hard to ask Relapse in to see the outcast Collapse in to view the down past Perhaps you will-will come, outlast Elapse on and I'll really be last But I am livin' so-so fast Nineteen years but feel forty's past One-two tears but real stories masked Yeah, I'm a clown even when down, and I'm a fake even when taken Yeah, she took my heart, made it bleed, shook us apart, paid with speed Shot me to death, she was the test 'Got a bunch of demons on my left, they're screamin' in my ears I think I'm goin' deaf On my right's an Angel in a spotlight, he's whisperin' Hold on tight, hold on tight, it's gonna be all right, gonna be all right, hold on tight to the light We're at the finale, my screws gone loose Both beings in my sight, whose way do I choose We're at the end of the path, whose way will I choose Whose way will you choose, set a fuse I know I'm gon' lose I'm so sick of this abuse, what else have I got to lose Perhaps they'll all care once I'm gone, 'so hard to bear I was played like a pawn How many times do I even complain How many times do you leave me insane My brains goin' insane, almost everybody's the same Most the world's so fake, all the girls so fake But who am I to blame, who am I to blame I'm ashamed it's a game set aflame, it's so lame, what a shame, now, I've exclaimed Yeah, last girl left me heartbroken, heart chokin' Last girl left me on open, kept hopin' All these girls leave me in the dust, still not over it 'Seems like the whole world leaves me in the dust But what's new, I'm so used to it, used to no trust I got no friends, what's family, they left me behind 'Least I got truth on my side, never leaves me behind What am I left with What am I left with What am I left with What am I left with 'Got a bunch of demons on my left, they're screamin' in my ears I think I'm goin' deaf On my right's an Angel in a spotlight, he's whisperin' Hold on tight, hold on tight, it's gonna be all right, hold on tight to the beloved light 'Know that love is real, but why do I have all of these feels Love is really true, but I'm waiting to say that I really do Lookin' at my parents, lookin' at my parents, thirty-nine years marriage They're still goin', thankful to have them in my life They're the best people, I know, always there throughout all the strife Maybe one day I'll find a wife, find her, find the right one Oh, the right one Maybe one day I'll find the one But I'm twirled in all this heartbreak, all of this heartache, what am I left with Yeah, I'm a lost soul, blessed but stressed I'll be last 'cause I'm trash Now I'm trynna live the road of happiness Pursuit of happiness, full of jokes Pursuit of property, full of hoax Pursue property and all I find is scrappiness, real unhappiness Maybe one day we'll get there, maybe if I'm- Maybe if I'm still still spared I was placed here to lead the lost souls But how can I lead when I've lost my own goals It's just so arduous to live life heartily when you endure love that's dead and knifed artily My tears come out like a hurricane but I wish they would just hurl my pain And Ima live a peasant but I will die a legend 7776 Take the past and make it art, something beautiful