Deep Down

Do I get a say in this Was I really made for this? Words really cut deep Like a knife to the heart, lay to rest, let em sleep Deep down, I be feeling down, ain't no way up Talking bout how they living easy like a layup See, my mom used to trapping daily, gotta pray up Put in work, even late nights she had to stay up And Every day, I be dodging arrows tryna hurt my soul Im working on my heart, so I can't wear it on my sleeve Building back trust, fixing this story that I weave Problems that I'm working on, lessons that I'm learning on Music that I'm splurging on, foundations that I'm leaning on Beats that I be turning on, my fire gon keep burning on, damn People counting on me Money's talking but it's only speaking numbers to me, woah So if I got a say in this Let them know they subbed me in this game, and now I'm killing shit If I got a say in this Let them know that when I walk through, man, we're living it Up We living this up The city lit up The gang done slid up No, I cannot give it up Now it's time to live it up Still deep down, I be stuck in my own head Voices telling me that I ain't good enough A disappointment, keep my head down before I mess shit up But I realized now that this my moment And I could approach this either two ways Stay the same, never change, let my own people down Live a life thats constantly drowned by my minds sounds Walk around, my soul lost, never find a purpose Nights spent dropping tears, my mind a blank surface Or F all that, boss up, chin up, the spotlights on me now So what am I gonna do with it? perform or do I freeze in it There's consequences for my actions Time to take responsibility and cancel my distractions still Deep down, heart still cold, feelings that I gotta try and Keep down, Dont just stay ten toes, no, I keep both of my Feet down, I'll ride for anyone, and that's a fact If this is my life, I gotta act So if I got a say in this Let them know they subbed me in this game, and now I'm killing shit If I got a say in this Let them know that when I walk through, man, we're living it Up We living this up The city lit up The gang done slid up No, I cannot give it up Now it's time to live it up