How It Feels To Feel Nothing

Yeah

I know I ain't been myself lately

I been feeling like I need help lately

Feel like all the people I've needed just left me when they ain't need me

So I just keep to myself lately

Some people are damaged before they know it

Some people are broken but they don't show it

Memories burning, my heart is frozen, but

I'm only human don't judge me, yeah, I'm still growing

I mean, its hard to love when your hearts been bruised in the past

Your soul broken, you're scared of being attached

And everybody just acts like they understand

We all have that one person we wish we had, but

Times change, people change, I'm still the same

Just some things you won't understand till you feel the pain

Our love burned like a fire in a storm

Knew it wouldn't last but at least it kept us warm

I mean, you know me, I know I wasn't the only

I know I wasn't the one you just loved me 'cause you were lonely

But fuck

I used to be so in love with being alive

But these days I just think of the fact that one day I'll die

And these people will just forget about me

The ones that act like they gave a shit about me

As soon as I turn my back, talking shit about me

But I need love even if it's fake so they still around me

They still around me it's clear

What if I disappeared?

What if I just said fuck this life I don't wanna be here?

What if I take these pills and I don't wake up from my sleep?

Sometimes wish I could have a conversation with Peep

A conversation with Mac, maybe they feel how I feel

Too caught up in the pain, but we forget that it heals

Yeah well, I've got a busy mind and an empty soul

And I'm stuck between running back or just letting go

She sins like a devil, but, loves like an angel

If you see what I see, she's beautiful, every angle, yeah

You see I put my emotions all on the table

But why is it the people with the most blessings that's never grateful, damn

Loves like an angel, if you see what I see, she's beautiful, every angle yeah

All on the table but why is it the people with the most blessings that's never grateful, I mean

Yeah, they say true love don't ever grow apart

They say you can't break a broken heart

They say it hurts until you feel nothing

So I take these drugs until I feel something

They say true love don't ever grow apart

They say you can't break a broken heart

They say it hurts until you feel nothing

So I just hide from these feelings and I'm still running

I'm still running I'm just