Lyrics

When I was just a little boy
Seven years old
An older cousin came to stay
I was a lonely boy
Who needed attention
And this cousin wanted to play
With only me
Late one night
He pressed behind me, held me tight
And whispered in my ear
In a voice meant to loosen my limbs and shield his sins
He said it was just a game he wanted to play
With only me
I didn't scream
My spirit left my body to watch the scene
I was powerless to stop it, so it seemed
I didn't cry
Though I was bereft like someone died
And that someone was me
Was it my fault?
My curiosity, my need?
Does it explain the naked figures haunting my dreams?
Lovely phantoms whispering in my ear
In voices meant to loosen my limbs and reveal my sins
About a game they want to play
With only me
Pray to God, but even God couldn't make them go away
Then there was you
And night became my friend
And now I dread the day
[Instrumental]
Charles
What I wanted to say
What I need to tell you
I love you
But there's a boy who believes I love only him
The hours I give to you are stolen
I promised to another
I can't come here any longer
I can only be your friend
You're not serious, Greta
Don't do this to me
I love you, don't leave me alone
I need you
You're the only thing keeping them at bay
If I hadn't told you
Charles
The hours I give to you are stolen
There's a boy who believes I love only him
If I hadn't told you my secret
Charles, it's me
Would we still have to be friends?
I can't live with this duplicity
I won't live half a lie
I have to decide
And I choose him
I can't stay
I'm sorry
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I'd give up sleep forever
To have you a moment longer
[Instrumental]
What is this feeling?
Is this my heart breaking?
[Instrumental]
There once was a boy of peculiar grace
A damaged, tainted boy
Alone, disgraced
A sad, pathetic boy
Who had no place
Written by: Terence Blanchard
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