Can't Escape

Yeah, I don't wanna talk, stop reaching out Didn't need you then, don't need you now This fuckin' world's tryin' to beat me down I spill my heart 'til I'm bleeding out I write my truth, never leave it out I overthink when I think about those who did me wrong So I write a song 'cause you motherfuckers gotta see me now, I'm Tired of this, I'm just tryin' to get inspired again All of my demons keep pilin' in Until I can't breathe They make me believe that I'm hurt 'til I'm spiraling I hate the mood that I am in Conceal all my pain, I'm hiding it This feeling won't fade, I'm tired of it Yo, why is it that all my feelings always have me stuck on the deep end? I cannot sit around and pretend, like I'm alright when I'm in pieces Seeing all the people I believed in switch up, so they force me to leave them Now my trust issues keep increasing While I'm trying to battle my demons, I Wanna quit, but that just isn't me I put a decade in this, I've mastered my self-belief But one thing that I can't fix, are the burdens my life brings They suffocate me and it's dragging my soul underneath Wish I could breathe (mm, yeah) People aren't who they pretend to be So I keep my distance, 'cause I see through them eventually Fake people calling people fake, that sums up the whole industry I see them as enemies, I got real ones who stick with me, but I'm trapped in my thoughts I have felt so lost Why can't I get out? 'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh 'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh I just Wakin' up, feeling empty and stuck It's depressing, it sucks I'm not tryin' to give up But I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah) Yeah, I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah), yeah Going to bed, with these thoughts in my head Make me feel like I'm less, like I'm better off dead 'Cause I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah) I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah) Yeah, I'm surprised that I don't drink Maybe that'll numb my pain at night when I can't sleep These thoughts scatter my brain, and make me start to think About times that I wasted, chasing people I grieve I need a reset, hate feeling depressed Deflect, every single issue and regret Reject, any help you offer, I'll eject And isolate myself 'cause either way I swear these next Chapters in my life (my life), I won't let nobody in (yo, yo) But I know I'ma fuck that up 'cause isn't it obvious? I always break myself promises, the problem is I'll commit to everybody else before Jonathon, damn My demons keep me cornered They taunt me 'til I'm tortured Happy, sad, in that order I may have a disorder Carry weight on my shoulders My heart is growing colder My dad is never sober That's why I don't go over, I (yeah) Sound over the top, in ever record I drop Live my life, we can swap Some say that I'm blessed, when really I'm not I got everything but can't enjoy anything I got, 'cause I'm trapped in my thoughts I have felt so lost Why can't I get out? (I can't get out) 'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh 'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh I just Wakin' up, feeling empty and stuck It's depressing, it sucks I'm not tryin' to give up But I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah) Yeah, I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah), yeah Going to bed, with these thoughts in my head (my head) Make me feel like I'm less (I'm less), like I'm better off dead (I'm dead) 'Cause I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah) Yeah, I cannot escape this (I can't escape this, yeah, yeah) I can't escape the pain inside my heart No, I can't escape, no, I can't escape