5 Percent of My Problems

This the best time of my life my life's been so up and down I went to Florida my frown turned upside down I came back to reality only realizing that I'm 600 dollars in debt and I live in this town This town full of clout chasers a town full of my haters While I'm trying to make it out I feel out of bounds People been asking me where's the music Like I wish I could make music but I'm too busy getting my life together I came back to the studio with my last 100 dollars and that shits crazy to me It's not because I needed music out I needed therapy Demons are getting to me I just hope that they don't get the rest of me Cause I can't lie they already took out the best of me they have my recipe That shit might sound bizarre to some of you mediocre pricks But every time I sleep I feel my soul and super nova hits cause every time I try to do Something it's like the whole world splits And puts me in the middle trynna crush my every bone to bits I tried talking to god he said he's letting satan work To prove him wrong hes taking everything I put in lots of work The other day I lost 650 songs Cause my phone broke and I broke it more it represented all my wrongs My lifes falling apart and I almost lost my job cause this crazy girl was in love with me She was creeping me out but I think she just needed company Cant lie didn't tell mom cause I knew that mami would spazz on her I just hope that she earns inner happiness on this planet earth To all the females out there that have a lot of respect for me please don't act like a fan Cause I'll get you so far away from me Don't creep me out and one day I'll come to you when I'm ready Don't think my songs about you just cause we talked for a second please Don't put your self up there I think bout my self and my family The drama queens be bugging nowdays you don't mean shit to me respectfully My parents also told me that they kicking me out if skip college Its probably cause she's scared her friends would judge me for my knowledge but I had no doubt she would say that at my graduation So I put headphones on and listen to the graduation And listen to Kanye talk about how he really made it College dropout is in my ear listen to Kanye's statements On how most people are just self so conscious And most of them have no clue what there doing in college And The major that they major in don't make them no money But if they drop out then there parents would just look at them funny If you ask me that seems insecure But the concept of school seems so secure Man if only mom knew that they want us to work like slaves Then maybe she'd support my different ways aye I tried to get a car but somehow they taking my money I'm walking home everyday and my musics my only company Cause I feel gods not next to me more like dude is just watching me Like shit I'm getting mad dawg I'm feeling mad animosity I thought that if I left you then I would get all the company now I think If I followed you I would probably be happy Cause I feel family left me that wasn't part of the plan I lost my self in this process creating the man I am If I heard god in the first place would I still be where I am Cause I'm just missing the old Gabe I wanna talk to that man Maybe I'll tell him what to do no mistakes in the process Cause you almost killed your self dawg in life theres no fucking reset Jon said I never wanna be famous stop calling me underrated I'm still driving the same whip that I was driving to Salem My peace is on some As-salamu alaykum but satan keeps interrupting So I guess I'm doing something My moves always come up and some people around me pray for me Its not so I get better it's so they can get the custody Of the child that lives with me it's there to keep me company Or to keep me happy but Its slowly loosing trust from me Haven't been happy since 2012 I wanted to get some braces so I can smile at 12 But mami said that's much money I went to the dentist A girl told me that she would pay for me She said my smiles cute if it was straight it would've paved a way for me Maybe more people would accept the way that I wait So patiently Mom said don't worry it goes with his personality Now I'm 18 haven't smiled since the fuckin age of 3 Maybe that's why the world prays down on me and stays away from me People be asking me why you serious gabe just socialize Im anti social it's not because I don't like to socialize Is when I'm social that people Publicize and they criticize When I'm not social I have the power and feel immortalized The only reason I don't communicate with you fucking frauds is cause the world and god Turned me so nonchalant I been threw so much That I just wanna get to where I want I'm feeling painless So When I go through things I don't respond I just keep moving the more I grew I just transformed I feel like Megatron, decipticons in the shelf of my head I keep myself ahead, Cause all the things that I've seen were never rich I was born in a ditch no cameras It's good for growth but I just wish I liked the bitter feeling of nostalgia I know Ill make it one day but i ask god if it worth it I hope it is cause heaven sounds so good but I am certain That if I keep on working god will bless I'm getting tested Let's see how I get out I'll see y'all when im in inception