Life on the Playground

Up close, trying not to breathe My life so far was suddenly a dream And then, he's gone And I am my mother's son I can't find out What it is I've done I'm the one standing your mirror And you're the one between there and here Living in a moment, frozen, running past the end And running the same thoughts through my head over and again Clutching on your silent phone you hang on hoping still You ask me what I'm gonna do and I can't I can't I can't remember Nothing at all No, nothing at all Then in a moment or two, when it's faded from view I thought I saw you One day, I'm okay, but the next day I am not I can't sit still with any passing thought Talk, talk Tell me that you're real When I'm alone Tell me what to feel I spend a day in my old house just trying to take it in But two months later on the train I'm falling apart again Once again, lost out in time just searching for a strand Stopping myself to ask why I can't I can't I can not remember Nothing at all Going back to that fall In a moment or two, when it's faded from view I thought I saw you Don't fall apart It's breaking my heart I can't, I won't, I don't want to wake up I hope against hope, but it'll never be enough