Not Enough

I need you in my arms cause you're one in every one because you're the one for me or So I thought I wanted it to be me and you but I guess I keep fucking up and getting it all wrong I lost all hope and courage when I faded to copper instead of gold Maybe in another time in another life you would've said yes Now the air vibrates as your voice floats through and I felt it in my chest I didn't ask too much from you but maybe that was too much too soon I still haven't learned how to cope with the reality of the situation because I thought I had loved figured out with you around Guess I moved too fast and caused a car crash cause I'm a wreck I just wanted to impress you and let the flames absolve my sins but I shot my shot and missed I might become a martyr anon so God please help me before I'm gone You were my remedy but now without you I feel empty I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted or needed I'm sorry that I'm in love with you Sorry that I wanted it to be me and you Sorry that my head is good at thinking of bad things But it doesn't matter how much I want it This won't change The feelings you have for me won't change Now my halo is all bent and these feelings won't fade I couldn't make you feel I couldn't make you stay Glistening in the moonlight The stars and your eyes were shining so bright Now I wanna end my life I ain't no Picasso but don't gloss over my words when I'm sober Edification seemed so close when I heard your words Please turn the page of beautiful youth when I start to move on And regret lingers Echoes never yearn When I'm talking with you I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared Sorry I can't be him and make your heart flutter Sorry that when I see you my heart stutters I'm just scared that I'll die before my heart fails From heartbreak or cocktails So sorry I'm not worthy of love and that I'm not good enough I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared And maybe I am just romanticizing this ideology So sip wine out of my glass heart because I just wanted to share a dance with the girl in red wine shoes and a denim jacket I just wanted to do nothing with you because then it would have meant something Maybe if the caveat of my demise came anon I wouldn't care so much about you but I Still do And I'm sorry I asked too much too soon I'm sorry I still can't carry on Sorry that I can't be your korean rockstar I keep apologizing for my faults but that's because I'm in the wrong For thinking I could have a chance with you This ain't even a rap I'm just writing what I feel and when I wake up I hope these Feelings won't be real And all we've had are a couple of encounters so why am I acting like we've been friends Fyears Why am I lying to myself thinking that there might be something when I know I'm Nothing to you I was never good enough to be chosen so why do I see the future as golden Not enough Not what you wanted This is a song for you and you're my inspiration Sorry for the lack of communication but I'm so afraid of fucking up my lines and saying The wrong thing and driving you away Instead I drive myself insane not knowing what to say when we talk I'm afraid of running into you in real life because I probably couldn't look in your eyes Cause I'm a fucking coward Je ne savais pas encore que tout et moi, nunca iba a pasar I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared Sorry I can't be him and make your heart flutter Sorry that when I see you my heart stutters I'm just scared that I'll die before my heart fails From heartbreak or cocktails So sorry I'm not worthy of love and that I'm not good enough I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared I keep falling again and I want to be the reason for you to stay But I lack everything you wanted or needed And all my damage is seeded in love Broken to me since I was young Brainwashed by movies and tv thinking it was gonna be easy Now here I am feeling worthless and broken because I was never chosen first I love you but your heart belongs to another Now my voice is stolen and my wings are cut as I fall in reverse Time can't ice this hurt I wish my voice was heard and that we could fly away like birds My mind is stirred in the slight possibility of the ability of me and you But I know that's a lie I tell myself to comfort the burn And now I'm idle as life seems less vital and the sight of you is like medicine but my Eyes can't see the truth that I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared Sorry I can't be him and make your heart flutter Sorry that when I see you my heart stutters I'm just scared that I'll die before my heart fails From heartbreak or cocktails So sorry I'm not worthy of love and that I'm not good enough I'm not enough I'm not what you wanted I'm not your lovely white dove Je pensé que jusqu'ici tout va bien when you played with my head Made me dizzy as I was in despair But to be honest I never really cared