Eulogy

Drafting my eulogy

A scream, pins and needles bursting at the seams

I move through novelty

This ego searching for relief

Voices tell me where to go

Is it me or is it someone that I've yet to know?

Stretching methodically through each piece of my mind

Neurological decline

Sparse are the days where the rapid decay

Move on through the phantom that'll carry away

My grasp is slipping with the hands of time

What will heal my mind?

You say you'd do anything to help me

But when I'm reaching out for help you desert me

Cold natured world on display

Is there anybody out there who can tame this rage?

Sinking slowly to the depths of the monster

Half alleviated, unmotivated to stop her

You want it? You got it

The worst in me is coming and it's too late to stop it

See the world through my eyes

Now testify to the pain inside

You take my world, fit it in the palm of your hand

Moving every facet for your entertainment

Tell me all about myself like you know me

A statistic in a book not a heartbeat

Not a heartbeat

I need help, I need peace

I can't ignore all the signals around me

These signs keep pointing towards your demise

I'm not fine

See the world through my eyes

Now testify to the pain inside

Testify

Why am I here?

What is my purpose?

Life makes me nervous

And I don't deserve this

You bring out the worst in me

You'll shove your demons in my face

When my own I cannot tame

Losing grip on reality

Keeping it together, yeah, I try and try

While everyone around me lives a lie

Can't make the same face, trace the same lines

Move out of my way while there's still time

See the world through my eyes

Now testify to the pain inside

This world could pull me down into my grave

But I'm taking you with me