Credits
KOMPOSITION UND LIEDTEXT
Randall D Richards
Songwriter:in
Lyrics
Sometimes life got me feeling like a pshyco
I might go grab a motherfucker by his throat and watch his eyes close
Always on edge doc says I gotta let my pride go
I'm upright for now but I'm standing on a tight rope
Side note wish I could set this shit aside bro
Disguised smile I hide behind gets harder all the time yo
I feel like theirs nobody who can truly understand me
I'm all alone on my own even when I'm with a my family
I pop another pill and decide to take what the world hands me
Focus on the good before the devil inside damns me
Still contemplating suicide all the time
So the the fact that I'm alive is win that I survive
This battle inside has completely taken over me
Slowly gained control of me
Can't recognize the man I was before I'm so phony
I don't know
If I can take it
Not sure if I can fake it
Need to feel something real
Since this deal I made with satan
No more hiding no more waiting
This addiction got me shaking
Don't know how imma gonna do it
Don't know how I'm gonna make it
I don't know
If I can take it
Not sure if I can fake it
Need to feel something real
Since this deal I made with satan
No more hiding no more waiting
This addiction got me shaking
Don't know how imma gonna do it
Don't know how I'm gonna make it
I don't know
My kids are all that keeps me breathing
Only reason I'm not leaving
Even tho that fucking hoe I used to bone
Won't let me see em
Hope they know how much I need em
Never hurt em or mistreat em
Not on propose I'm so worthless
God know I was never perfect
Tried to bottle up my problems but my shit rose to the surface
Round every corner struggles lurking
Don't think medications working
But I'm certain that this achohol is hurting
Any chance to heal this burden
Now I'm searching for a fraction of myself
Hard to admit I got a problem I need help but I retreat into myself and hide cause pride Won't let me confide in noone else
Please understand the fires hot when your in hell
A little is a lot when they expect for you to fail
I know they say there's nothing more to fear than fear it's self
But my mind is a prison and I'm confined to this cell
Maybe I'll be better soon but for now it's hard to tell
I don't need another hater
I already hate myself
I don't know
If I can take it
Not sure if I can fake it
Need to feel something real
Since this deal I made with satan
No more hiding no more waiting
This addiction got me shaking
Don't know how imma gonna do it
Don't know how I'm gonna make it
I don't know
If I can take it
Not sure if I can fake it
Need to feel something real
Since this deal I made with satan
No more hiding no more waiting
This addiction got me shaking
Don't know how imma gonna do it
Don't know how I'm gonna make it
I don't know
Written by: Randall D Richards
