I Think I Hate Myself

I think I hate myself, nobody else And all my daydreams send me to hell And all my friends have left again Is this real or is it in my head? Do I still feel alive or is it just the high? Still waking, baking, tryna convince myself I'm fine I don't really know what I am doing right now Fake it 'til I make it 'cause I don't know how Still waking, baking, but I'm telling my mum I'm fine What the hell is going on with me? I feel at home in a cemetery I, I hate myself, nobody else And all my daydreams send me to hell And all my friends have left again Is this real or is it in my head? Is it such a crime to hate myself sometimes? I'm smoking, choking, but I'm only just getting by Call me a vanilla kleptomaniac Stealing from the rich and never giving back Still smoking, choking, but I'm telling my dad I'm fine I told you once, I told you twice, take my advice I'm just a weirdo Reality bites, I try to be nice 'Cause you don't wanna go where I go Seeing ultraviolet on a bathroom floor Trying to be content but always wanting more Still smoking, choking, am I feeling alive? I, I hate myself, nobody else And all my daydreams send me to hell And all my friends have left again Is this real or is it in my head? Cross my heart, hope to die Stick your needles in my eyes Am I alive or feeling less? So give me sex and cigarettes Guilty and preoccupied with what will happen when I die Am I alive or feeling less? Is this all real or in my head? And I, I hate myself, nobody else And all my daydreams send me to hell And all my friends have left again Is this real or is it in my head? And I, I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself