Chapter 4: Overthinking Oblivion

For once in my life, I'm unable to cry I feel heavy resistance From remembering to smile Blocked memories from my mind Have I become a lie? Do I underestimate damage Of fabricating dreams in distorted light? Is this life a swing and a miss? Am I failing to follow through? Can I finally admit I'm rigged with conflict to show who's who? Is there anyone to catch me As I fall back down to earth Hit solid ground? 'Cause I'd carry the weight of the world On my shoulders if I could only save myself If I don't know how to ask for help Can I learn to absolve this kind of personal hell? 'Cause I'd carry the weight of the world On my shoulders if I could only save myself I've been in the driver's seat, with nothing to prove And I walked away from every scene still aiming to lose it