17

Wish I could've found the words to say

Wish I could've given hurt you gave (what the fuck going on, Cabo)

'Cause we could've love

We could've been something

But not if I'm broken and I don't know to...

Call my pops, lights off again, but I don't know how to tell him

He already think my momma bad like a parent, she failin'

I know this go come with arguments so fuck it I just close my teeth

Suck my pride up tell him I love him, take my ass to sleep

Was gon' make 16 part two but I turned 17

Fell off in them streets from ten to 13, now they notice me

Sayin' I got hope and I'ma blow but my past holding me

Daddy still sayin' stay up off them streets

How he ain't showin' me

Couldn't focus in the classroom

Mind in the streets like potholes

Fell in love with the hustle 'cause them hoes leave you heart broke

Got pressure on my soul, you couldn't handle, make your heart choke

Wrote a story about the pain up in my life, they wrote a short note

Next morning I was thinkin' it's 'bout time to go and hit the block

See my momma crying and stressing bout these bills, it gotta stop

Get three dollar from my uncle, grab the dice and pop the block

Come up 'bout 300, pay the bills, that boy will leave you shot

Days I was cryin ain't have nobody holdin' me

Now they see that I got talent they try'na come close to me

Momma hold it down with nothin' left, that's how it 'pose to be

She was havin' strokes and heart problems, couldn't get close to me

See my momma cryin' and hurtin'

She keep tellin' me she straight

Now I know that something wrong cause now she tryna keep away

Reminded that I'm nine, she don't wanna see no tears up on my face

So she lyin' to me about her health, she try'na keep me safe

Imagine walkin' in a room with yo' momma, she can't move or talk

Now you trying to shake her and she aint even respond at all

It's just you and your sister, she 13 and you nine, that's all

You ain't got no family, the hospital the only call

Now it's night time, I'm in my bed and I can't go to sleep

So I poke two lines up even though that it's hurtin' me

I was ten selling drugs, most kids parent ain't never seen

I was smoking weed, don't ask for pee, I know that it ain't clean

Never been dumb, I been smart since the 'git

Don't come in my circle thinkin' I'ma fall for them tricks

I seen the real at nine

And I seen where love'll get

That's why I was ten when I started toting them sticks

If we catch up with a **** then you know that it's straight Ammotec'

When we catch up with him, you know we finna do him bad

Run off in this shit, punching while Lil' Bop he gon' grab his ass

That's how we was raised

All we really know is smash his ass

(Wish I could've found the words to say)