Wake Up and Feel Depressed

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again

Too much time up on my hands

I gave my feet a break

Too many times I've cried to God

I hit my knees and prayed

Thinking bout trapping or jacking

I'll take the easy way

The Devil chasing me daily

I'm playing keep away (Whoah)

Know some jawns that want to see me in a squad car

I'm gon' make them sick when they see me on the pop-charts

I'm from the part of my city you go to cop tar

Fight like my life dependent on it

Boy - I got heart

Won't waste no time on these bitches that try to slow me down

Won't show no love or no friendship if you won't hold me down

So many claim that they ain't know me

Bet they know me now

I used to be the youngbul

I'm "Big Homie" now

All that aside I feel ashamed for how I feel inside

I try to talk about it but it never works

Contemplating suicide or going berserk

You got the nerve to ask me why I'm late to work

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again

I think about it all the time

It lingers within my mind

I'm scared of being afraid

I'm afraid of falling behind

Growing numb by the day

It don't feel as if I'm alive

Some days I believe in God

Other days - I sit inside

Hide away from everything that make me feel weak

Don't want to talk

I'm paranoid - I'll let the steel speak

When I'm in love's the only time I ever feel free

Will I decide to take my life?

I guess that we'll see

Been trying to treat myself the way I do my best-friends

I hit them up - their responses don't ever get sent

It seems to me without a beat they never listen

I'm using music to purge everything I've kept in

The only time I feel alive

Mid-cry while I'm driving to work

The pain written on my face

I ain't hiding the hurt

Everybody wears a mask, boots, vest, and a hat

I'm either destined for the stars or I'm destined to snap

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again

I wake up and feel depressed

I go to work to pay the rent

I wait until it's time for bed

Wake up and do it all again