Self-Destruct

Promise me

Nothing that you said was a hyperbole

All the shit you said about loving me

Every day for eighteen months

Just say it's true

I'm sorry

It's just another product of anxiety

Bringing me to moments where I can't sleep

I lie awake and think about the worst things possible

I know that I want to be by your side

But it's so hard when we're not in the same state of mind

Tear down the walls that you build up inside

Do you know what I'm about to tell you?

I miss all the days that we would spend

Eating candy, watching TV in the bed

Back when I was happy

I was cool, wasn't tortured

By this thing inside my head

I felt there was purpose in my life

When I could bе who I wanted all the time

Now I sit in silence

Wishing that I could hear you say my name

Once more for the books, just one time

Locked up in the back part of my mind

Maybe I wouldn't feel what I used to feel

When I'm staring deep in the ocean of your eyes

These days I'm afraid of everything

I'm afraid that everything may never change

So I lay down on the floor

And think about you and how you say my name

How you say my name