It's Christmas Eve again and I'm stuck thinking
Of all the miles that my steps put between you and me
A year's come and gone, I'm still dwelling on
This absence I've had since I was eighteen
But home's where the heart is so what can I do
When a love for both places breaks my heart in two?
It just doesn't feel like Christmas to me
When nothing is the way that it used to be
The air's getting colder and I'm growing older each year
And I'm still attending to mending a heart full of fear
I guess some things stay the same but childhood disappeared.
Beneath the Christmas lights, something's not quite right
Even though I'm surrounded I still feel alone
As we make merry I try to bury my
Aching heart that's just wishing that I could go home
It just doesn't feel like Christmas to me
When nothing is the way that it used to be
'Cause the seasons roll on and if I'm being honest it's clear
I'm still pretending that I'm not contending with fear
I guess some things stay the same but childhood disappeared
Yeah, some things stayed the same but I just disappeared
