Fighting Battles

I feel, every day I’m in a battle

Battling my demons

Just another day in hell for a young black male,

That straight and narrow path still led me right to a cell

We don’t have a safety net for when we try it and fail

Need that money for bail to embarrassed to tell

I fell down bad

These ain’t the cuff links that go with my cap and gown dad

But scratch that, never had that just a back pack

And some step dads who gladly took role

Couldn’t walk in their shoes cause I could never fit the soles

In my soul, haven’t planted my seed

Scared of curses they’d inherit from me

Maybe resentment from my horrible deeds

My baby cousin didn’t make it to the age of three

This shit be weighing me, I’m losing hands that were praying for me

Not how I planned it to be, but I be trying

And everyday somebody dying, dreams of family at my funeral crying

Rather get my roses while I’m alive, cause Life is just a millisecond in time

I still walk amongst the living and enter another season

Every day that I’m breathing, fighting battles with demons mayne

Praying for an angel to relieve pain

I just keep my faith that it won’t be in vain

I enter another season every day that I’m breathing

Fighting battles with demons mayne

Praying for an angel to relieve pain

I just keep my faith that it won’t be in vain

Join the armed forces or enroll in some courses,

Coming from the bottom you don't have too many choices

'less you played ball

I know high school stars that didn't play long

This game will tear you apart if you don’t play along

Many play it wrong putting on, but I peep

A victim to the streets will they souls just for greed

You trying to gain some followers but don’t know how to lead

The day you stop breathing they’ll forget you in a week

That’s why I don’t compete and live my like I want to

Through the twists and turns no doubt you bound to stumble

Escaped up out my cell but still I felt humbled

Sometimes this life is just too much of a constant struggle

I don’t want to, but I’m having visions of my end

And hoping I can leave a lasting mark through my pen

Lord forbid, before the memory of me is really gone in the wind

I hope my life inspires you to go live

I still walk amongst the living and enter another season

Every day that I’m breathing, fighting battles with demons mayne

Praying for an angel to relieve pain

I just keep my faith that it won’t be in vain

I enter another season every day that I’m breathing

Fighting battles with demons mayne

Praying for an angel to relieve pain

I just keep my faith that it won’t be in vain

So please don’t cry for me cause when I leave this earth

I’ll give my energy back to the universe

And what it gave to me I give to you to disperse

I’ll reach my highest form whenever I’m immersed

With the most high

You’ll feel my spirit alive

Its been passed down a long ways, and I pray it finds its way to you

And after everything that we been through, you know what I would say to you

And when the ground beneath you falls you’ll slip, just try your best to find your grip

And just know,

Know that I’ll be proud of You

I still walk amongst the living and enter another season

Every day that I’m breathing, fighting battles with demons mayne

Praying for an angel to relieve pain

I just keep my faith that it won’t be in vain

I enter another season Every day that I’m breathing

Fighting battles with demons mayne