Twenty Two

Life’s a blur if you don’t ever stop to focus on it

Don’t be stagnant on the path it only throws you off it

You gotta face decisions, hard enough to make you vomit

I let my spirit break before I ever break a promise

I’ve been through that - so many times I loop back

The younger me would cope with doobies and some cool raps

I’m twenty two and I’m just tryna get my groove back

You tell me figure out my shit - baby, true that

All I ever really wanted was some peace of mind

To need a light inside the heart of one who needed mine

It’s time to realign, talk to God and read a sign

You see the thing about your life is you can redesign

Enough about it, I got so much to be thankful for

I got the friends and fam anxious for a banging door

Say you love em, then get tatted with your favourite four

Most of all I finally found what I been praying for

I thank the Lord because He told me it was hard to find

The darkest times bring the wisdom and the hardest rhymes

The longest dive is preceded by the sharpest rise

Are the stories of our life about the calmest tides?

That’s the thing about change, though, man

It feels gross and it is uncomfortable

But that uncomfortableness, that’s the learning, and you gotta be able to identify that

It’s easy said but now go put that shit in practice

Happiness is not determined by your fucking assets

Honestly it’s how you’re living with the past tense

Being conscious of your homies and your bad friends

Difference being though, who is standing with you after?

Who is really riding with it? Who is just an actor?

I’m preaching to the choir but I’m not a pastor

Sound like Drizzy Drake, but a little faster

I can promise I will not be broken

And I will not apologize for my emotion

I will stand tall, slay a wave to brave an ocean

How long would you wait for what will never open?

Better known for what you’ve done then what you’re doing now

Crave attention over progress, moving loud

Tryna keep the crew around in some cool gowns

Silly if you’re waiting you could do it now

Move around, let the newest sounds do the rounds

Put a poem on a beat, give it stupid bounce

Losing pounds, got me back to being new in town

Then pathetic fallacy had me queue the clouds

Healing too

Healing is painful as hell

Sometimes you feel like you’ve settled and then one thing just puts you right back

It’s a process

A necessary one

I thought a lot about if I should write this

In the open air of my involuntary night shift

Type it out and then delete it like a right click

Now I’m faithful in the fortune of a psychic

I truly hope that you are better off with me removed

I pulled the rug and probably left you feeling so confused

All a sudden I was facing what I couldn’t do

I know we said we’re doing fine but I see the bruise

Maybe you and I were not supposed to dance forever

In another life we may have tried to do it better

I’m aware that this will probably be a cold December

You’re courageous and I really hope that you remember

I know you wish that we could change the ending

That our messages were said instead of stuck in sending

Even if I did come back you shouldn’t let me

Did Peter get a second shot at losing Wendy?

It’s the feeling when a story ends

Was it ever really real or was it just pretend?

Ain’t no use in going digging up a grave again

If you’re open to it I would love to stay your friend